I got flowers delivered today and of course there are pink roses. They're from a co-worker and his wife thanking me for helping him with work related things.
I had some alone time today so I packed a lunch, had a drive in Onyx, did my thrift store then ate lunch at Kin park at the ocean. It was pelting rain. It was so nice listening to the rain on the soft top and my book at the same time.
Check out my haul. $29 and all for me. Jeans, a Hawaii print nightie, a new Speedo bathing suit, a Tracker travel backpack, collapsible travel water bottle, a leash to match Sassy's pink flamingo halter, fingerless gloves and a hat for my Onyx camping stash, a bag big enough to hold all my diabetes supplies and a Boyds Bear, a girly bear holding an arm full of pink roses, of course.
Then I got Jia to work, picked up some groceries, gathered the boys from school and finally back home. Eric put in the new steering pump in Oscar. Wow, is steering oil ever stinky!
It was a nice, basic day. No major events.
Yesterday I had an appointment with the anesthesiologist for the general surgery on the 13th. It was a long chat. Apparently I've had way more surgeries than the average person so he is sure I'll be fine. Also, he is going through my huge file and told me I'm very healthy. There was a long silence and then I laughed and said "sure, aside from the anal cancer, Chrones and diabetes". My current diabetes meds are approved by him so I don't have to stop taking them. According to him my diabetes is really well controlled. We have differing views of controlled. It was controlled, then it wasn't, then it was and now I'm struggling to figure it all out again.
Monday I finally had insulin doses close. Tuesday my sugars were too low so I dialed it back and then it was a bit too high this morning again. So, getting close but clearly not an exact science.
I did get results back from one of the mri scans and I don't understand it all. Some parts still sound a bit alarming. A lot hinges on this next surgery. He will be attempting to remove two rectal tumors for biopsies and getting clear margins on the cancer lession.
We are staying home for Easter this weekend. That's weird. I'm not in the mood to camp in the cold. I don't feel like decorating either. The kids don't seem interested in Easter. I did buy them all Chocolate of course. Eric and I will be on a group run on Sunday celebrating Epic's one year anniversary.
Eric has the opportunity to do a trip to Rubicon and Moab with friends. A 19 day road/camping trip with lots of fun stops. It's in Sept. He would be back 4 days before we leave on our Hawaii cruise. I already have very serious fomo.
I just have no clue what I'm free to do. 19 days away from kids and dogs right before the 12 days for the cruise is too much. I'm decently positive I would be the road trip weak link. I have way too many issues. For a hot minute last night I thought maybe I could follow in Onyx with Kai and just skip the trail parts. Realistically, camping in the car with Kai would be daunting. 19 days is too long for me and Kai. My specialized diet would be hard on the road.
Leaving Kai with siblings and Gramma for a month seems cruel to all of them.
Eric says we've never been apart for 19 days before. So sweet. I'm certain we can handle that. The kids will be sick of girl dinners after 19 days without him here taking care of us.
At this point I'm still attempting to talk Eric into planning to go without me.
I appreciate everyone on this health journey with me. I love only having to type it out once. It leaves me more time to focus on other things. The blog has been handy for keeping my amazing support system in the loop.
Full length, long sleeve flannel night gowns are hard to find. My Mama wanted me to be warm through the recovery stage, so look what she had made for me! Definitely very warm :)
Thanks Mommy.
